refined

ive decided to change blogs.
im moving to wordpress.

i plan to blog there from now on
and have this place completely closed off and on private.
hopefully i would blog more often,
maybe on my work, inspiration and life.

i need to do something career orientated at the moment
because im scared that after i finish my course,
i wont be able to find a job.
im going to start blogging things i dont mind people seeing. =/
hrm.

in the spring

in exactly eight more weeks the semester ends.
i absolutely cannot wait to have free time and do nothing in the summertime.
but as for now im waiting for the real spring to arrive
weather this week is gong to be a downer
and that makes me sad.
especially after being sick for the past two weeks
and having life threatening coughing fits in my sleep.
i seriously felt like my lungs were going to fall out

green peas

i havent been eating green peas lately
but i have been on my green Ps for the last couple of days
and forgot to tell my friends
i havent even put up my green Ps in the car
should really do it soon.

coincidentally.. my name came up for free boost
same time round last year.
i think some higher being is trying to tell me im not that bad of a driver
even though some of my friends still fear the thought of me driving.
haha

screen worlds

heres a short timeslice i made at acmi.
as i was watching this i was a little sad because i realised my feet werent off the ground
even though it looks like im jumping. (sad face)
i might have to learn to jump a little higher next time.

in your sleep

a few reasons why i cant sleep at night
• its too cold
• its too  hot
• thinking about if i should get up and pee
• figuring out if im tired or if im really hungry
• thinking if ive forgotten anything for the next day
• thinking about thoughts that lead to other thoughts
• scared of something and cant take it off my mind
• im not tired
• caffeine
• feeling bad for not brushing my teeth and then ending up brushing my teeth
• re-enacting scenarios in my head
• because im thirsty but too lazy to get a drink
• feeling bad for not finishing my homework
• scared that ill be too tired to get up the next morning
• thinking about the weather tomorrow and what to wear

credit cards and other things

i applied for a credit card awhile ago without ever needing it
because the stupid lady called me and asked if i wanted one
and at the moment i was like "yeah why not"
and if i didnt want it i can always cancel it
or never go into my local branch to pick up my card

but when the time came when i was strapped up for cash
i went and picked up my credit card from my local westpac branch
since then i have been using my credit card like (almost) wild fire
i think im in the middle of using more than i make in a week
so there goes my savings

and at the same time i have been visiting these coupon sites my friends have intro-ed me to
and i have been making small purchases that are slowly adding up
 (sad face)
so if you ever get bored and want to explore visit these sites
crowdmass
zoupon
scoopon
spreets

at the moment the only reason i seem to be blogging
is because im trying to stay away from these sites
theres this certain coupon i want to purchase that my friends have already told me not to buy
because we dont need it
i need to stay away from it until the offer expires.
im pretty sure i can stay away til then

but until that happens,
i should really hide my credit card somewhere
so i dont end up using it

fourth year

i was talking to my friend today
and pretty much where life is going.
we suddenly realised that we both havent gone very far in life
compared to others,
were still at uni and still dont know when well finish

when asked how long left i have at uni
i say "about a year and a half"
but in my head its more like,
"ONLY IF i dont fail,
or choose to do work placement,
or do honours, or dont drop out of this course"
and then after all that,
im not even guaranteed a job
or know that this is what i really want to do my whole life.

i just want to finish uni already
or sleep in for the next two years and get a degree
and make money.

im going to sigh myself to sleep now
i want to be like the others.
completing uni and graduating.
if only i knew what i wanted earlier
and stopped fucking around with life
it would have been nicer to me