twenty-one

the number of days ive slept through my alarm
the number of days ive forgotten to get out of bed
the number of steps it takes me to get to the bathroom
the number of times ive missed the train
the number of times ive misplaced my mp3
the number of days ive walked in the rain without an umbrella
the number of days i didnt do my homework
the number of days ive skipped class
the number of candy fizzers in a packet
the number of hugs ive received from my siblings
the number of times my dad has told me to clean my room
the number of times ive fallen asleep with the tv on
the number of songs on my playlist at the moment
the number of times ive had to remind myself to change my facebook dp
the number of photos ive taken yesterday
the number of times ive forgotten to charge my phone
the number of times ive had to get out of bed because ive forgotten something
the number of times ive told myself to stop thinking
the number of days i actually slept early for a change
the number of days im not sure if i want to wake up
the number of my current age

whatever 21 is,
its just a number, a two digit number
do whatever you want with it
divide it by 3, add it to your life or subtract it from your mind

i dont know how to feel about being 21
am i suppose to feel wiser, taller, happier?
more of an adult?
it has no real significance to me whatsoever

she knows what she wants

throughout the whole year,
jenny has consistently hinted she wanted a nintendo ds

everytime the dsi ad appears,
she'd turn around and smile
followed by me replying "no, youre not getting it"
and when asked what she wanted for her birthday
she cunningly tries to describe a ds
"something rectangular shaped like this
(uses index fingers to draw a small rectangle)
with a pen thingy and you can play games on it"
lol, as describe by jenny

so for her birthday i bought myself a portable hard drive
and wrapped it up and gave it to jenny to open
she opened it and i asked if it was exactly what she wanted
she looked at me with a "wth" kind of face
and nicely replied "yes" with a slightly forced smile

after a couple of minutes of johnny going
"wow a hard drive!",
tommy chuckling to himself,
and the blank stares on her friends faces,
we gave her the dsi

she likes it very much!
its an even better present because she expected a ds
but instead got a dsi
so now she can post her pictures on facebook! haha







hrms i dont think tommy has any idea
of that photo of him she posted on her facebook

anyways i thought it was hilarious
when jenny was telling me what she thought that hard drive was
she thought it was that
"black box you plug blue wires into"
(she was trying to explain a modem) AHAHHAHA

so moral to the story:
persistence pays off
(or so we believe it should)

blame game

(monday whilst johnny took me out driving to safeway)
kim: so are you going to be home tomorrow?
johnny: nopes
kim: wednesday?
johnny: nope
kim: thursday?
johnny: you want to drive me to the physio?
kim: yeh

(wednesay- tommy's birthday, dad comes home from work)
dad: tommy pack your books downstairs
tommy: ok
kim: let him do it tomorrow, its his birthday
dad: (who now remembers its his birthday after i reminded him)
ah ok ok
happy birthday tommy (in a fobby accent)
how old are you now?
tommy: 13
dad: woah, (looks to me)
he grows up so quick
kim: (shrugs)
dad: (looks towards me and jenny)
say happy birthday
kim: already did
jenny: happy birthday tommy

(15 minutes later, dad comes back upstairs)
dad: hey lets go to supper inn!
(if youve read earlier blogs,
the only time we have dinner as a family is during a birthday)
get up and get changed and well tell johnny to meet us in the city
(time- 5:40)
tommy and jenny: yeh lets go
kim: dont bother, johnny's busy
he already told me his not going home
well go on friday
dad: call him anyway, he can eat with us and then go back to liesel's house
kim: why bother
dad: fine (walks away and has his shower)

(time- 6:30, sound of keys opening the door)
dad: (at the coffee table having dinner)
wohaha (that happy kind of sound)
youre home today
we were going to go to supper in for tommy's birthday
johnny: why didnt you call me?
dad: kim said you werent coming home today

(johnny walks upstairs to his room)
johnny: why didnt you call me?
kim: you told me you werent going to be home
johnny: no i didnt
kim: YES YOU DID (really pissy mood)
you told me when we were driving
johnny: well you should have called me anyway
kim: well if you told me you werent going to be home on wednesday then why bother
we can go on friday
johnny: you have your rags or something?
kim: no, you just always piss the shit out of me
(end of dialogue)


so in the end my family pretty much blames me for not going out for dinner
because i no longer have faith in my older brother to put the family first.
(no offence but we have always been a second priority to him,
and if he doesnt admit it, then its a lie)
and i dont think i should have been given the blame
because if my dad had remembered tommy's birthday,
(which tommy reminded him on monday night)
we could have arranged to do something early on because johnny was also home on monday night
and i also texted johnny in the afternoon today
(not related to tommys birthday though)
but he could have easily asked me if we were going to do anything tonight
of if i wanted to do anything tonight for tommy
so everyone is to blame, dont just take it out on me!

thanking you kindly

ive already sent everyone individual text messages

saying thanks for everything

i really appreciate it 

but ill just like to give you guys a lil heads up that

i dont do surprises

or birthday celebrations

im a simple kid who likes to do simple things

and when i mean simple.. so simple that it requires you to do nothing

for birthdays sending a quick text message is all i need

honestly i dont expect anything else

just the fact that you remembered

and if youve forgotten

you can always redeem yourself by sending a quick message before the day has ended

i dont care much for material things

but overall you guys know that i love you guys

a lot actually.. but i really dont want to express anymore emotion

so i hope you guys can already 'sense' that

and well just leave it at that

and ill chew what i can

so all i want to say is thank you again 

but please dont ever do this again

because next time ill make it all awkward and not turn up on purpose

despite all the efforts you went through

and knowing me you know ill do that

btw it was very cute of you guys

to be willing to go vegetarian for me =)

makes me appreciate you lot even more